Anxiety

I have been struggling with anxiety - more now than I quite possibly ever have. I have always known I am an anxious person and have battled anxiety head-on with therapy. 

When your life is consumed by IVF you kind of throw that whole part of self-care to the wayside.  This has been me.  

I started this year pregnant, followed up with a very traumatic miscarriage and then went straight into IVF. 

It's been a lot, and honestly I have been facing things with one eye opened. I am not taking care of myself. I am not coping with the feelings and the anxiety that I am riddled with.

I need to make me a priority. I need to pray more.  Make a weekly therapy appointment, no matter how many other appointments I have. Meditate more. 

My biggest anxiety through IVF has been failure.  It scares the bajesus out of me.  The truth is, I think this is the fear of many.  We are just afraid to talk about it. 

So, I just wanted to put this out there.  You are not alone in your struggles. You are not alone in your fears.