Hello September!

I have decided to not do an August recap, because August was surrendered to IVF.  It started on a positive note and ended on a negative note. I would rather just leave it behind and push forward, as scary as that may be. I appreciate everyone who has been there for me to vent to and those who have called to check up on us. It means the world.

The truth is, I have no idea who I even am these days. I do not feel like myself. My face is more often than not broken out or blotchy. My pants are too tight. My stomach is lumpy from all of the injections. I feel like a human pin cushion that has just gone through life's movements. I struggle to retain any level of normalcy, and that has to stop here. No excuses.

September is for normalcy. I know I have said it before, but I am giving it my everything this month. 

• I need to book a facial ASAP
• I need to get serious about what I am putting into my mouth. My sugar habit is out of control. I have gained weight since starting treatments and I hate it. The only person who can control it - is me. Included in this is doing better with prepping meals for the week. I have no excuses for not setting a couple of hours on my Sunday to get ready healthy snacks and lunches for the week. Also, more juicing. 
• I need to move more. I need to make time for evening walks and bike rides again now that the egg retrieval bloat has subsided. 
• I need to focus on what relaxes me and do more of it. 
• I need to continue working on my marriage.  This has been one aspect of my current life that has been good, and I want to make sure it remains that way.

As of right now, I am not thinking about our next possible retrieval. We haven't decided 100%. We want to speak to the embryologist about his thoughts when comparing this retrieval to our first and whether he believes our prognosis for blasts this next retrieval is good.