6 Days on the Board

I had my first monitoring appointment yesterday and drum roll... the Lupron and BCP did not over suppress me which I have been worried sick about.  

I had a few follicles between 10-12, and my med dosage was not increased. I will most likely have retrieval the end of next week.  

I found out my IVF nurse is also an IVF patient. She explained that her first cycle was Antagonist and her second was Lupron. She responded much better to the Lupron cycle. Lets hope I am the same, mmmkay? I can then forgive the horrendous side effects.  She then asked if her new trainee could be at my next monitoring appointment.  My response, "You know what they say... one's company, two's a crowd and three's a party."

At this point, all I can do is laugh.

This has been a rough cycle. The Lupron side effects, a sick pup and my due date for my most recent pregnancy loss quickly approaching its a lot for me to emotionally handle. My heart is heavy and saying my heart is fragile is an understatement. 

As difficult as it is, I am trying my best to stay positive for the future while grieving the past.